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I took my IPPT on Tuesday morning. I achieved my gold.
I was supposed to be happy. Supposed to be excited.
Truth is. After my ippt I was sent to the medical centre and got iv by the medics. Doctor subsequently granted me 2 days of medical leave.
I was angry and very weak. Physically and mentally. I couldn’t understand why i pushed myself so hard for the gold when i know my body was in no condition to be running at that pace. About a month ago I was down with a very bad infection in my throat and doctor advised me to not run for a month due to the fact that I cannot breathe properly and it’s a danger to myself.
But I still took ippt.
My dad found out about me going to medical centre. And for the first time in a very long time scolded me.
“why are you doing this to yourself? Is it worth it? Is this what you want?”
I cried.
Which made me think of the actual reason that I chose this path. Is this what I want? For ranking? For progression? For office politics? For other people? The joy of work is different. And has been for a few months now.
I need support. Real support. And I need time.
God have mercy on my broken soul.
Yeah..
So i am here.. in my room… typing this via my screen cracked ipod… and yes. sick like bird.
been wondering why on earth am i still keeping this not updated blog. i guess its still good to have a place where i can officially complain and nag and talk to whoever that stumbles upon this webpage. so hi. welcome to my world.
actually got nothing much to talk about too… last week was a erm… simple week… in fact… my job has become so simple that it makes me sick. lol… humans are always like that… when busy we complain no time. when free we complain nothing to do…
So i went to see the doctor just now.. and wow doctor see that im still alive and walking gave me 2 days MC from monday. now i finally get to rest properly…
Was also playing random songs on my ipod.. that reminded me why those songs are still in my ipod…
I still love listening to Chinese Songs.
just that Lady Gaga is so much more catchy
and if a song keep repeating over and over again in my head…
guess you also cannot help but listen to it right? lol…
Was at class gathering yesterday at city hall… good that most of them have finish their service… their talk transit from NS to school. which i must admit.. i am terribly jealous. but hey… blame who? who ask me to not put in effort in poly ahhaha.. well.. truth be told… if i ever have a chance to go back in time… ill still do the same LOL. well.. im just me.
Same thing applies at work too.. i seriously couldn’t care less if im rank last for the things ive done… coz strangely last year i came in first just by being me. so yeah… dont have to come and tell me that this time i am going up against some colleagues whom i never met and always came in first at courses. seriously?
I DONT CARE.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH… im me. memememememememememe.
and nothing you people do will change mememememememememe.
its a simple logic.
Have you ever been in a situation where u get accused of doing things that u didnt actually do just because the accuser did not bother to find out the whole complete story or situation?
I admit, I myself sometimes also react and judge instantly when i hear just a small part of story. its just human nature. We cant blame no one. but yet I’m typing this to make myself think and cool down. because I am a person who cannot accept people who accuse me of doing things i didn’t. especially if the outcome damages my image. its just isnt fair
Working is never simple. You can’t do whatever you like, you cant say whatever you like.. this is the hard truth in the face of every single person that are working.
but hey… though i am emotionally affected i believe that i will get better soon.
“Judge not, and ye shall not be judged: condemn not, and ye shall not be condemned: forgive, and ye shall be forgiven” Luke 6:37
Oh and i took IPPT again. 2nd time last week. first try i got 10:15, 2nd try i got 9:52. Don’t worry for i will not stop until i win myself.
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