WeiZhan

yeah… here i am sitting here in front of my monitor and enjoying a can of anchor beer… wait WTF i drink at home! yeah.. i do that… not always… No i’m not addicted to drinking… then why am i drinking? tsk… it helps me relax and get my thoughts flowing naturally without my brain censoring any part of it… thats a good thing right? everything open up and everything seems so simple and without complication… how i wish the real world is like that… non of the thinking damn hard and far for consequences and effect of what we wanna do.. just do only right…

im not justifying what im doing… im just saying that this world is not really perfect… people get selfish and are more protective towards themselves as days to come… at work people wants to excel faster than others… PEOPLE ARE LIKE THAT…. WE RESORT TO WAYS THAT IS GOOD FOR US… sometimes even if it means pushing people backwards… or stabbing them so they stop like totally…

please lah…. if its your fault so be it.. don’t blame it on others… and DONT EVER drag people down to die together with you.. thats fked up. yes FUCKEDEDEDED UP….

ok enough of my blabbering…

last week was a tedious one… spent most of my time in office and meeting… WTH? you may asked me why would spending time in office and meeting be tedious… i would say it is actually damn freaking stress… hey… i love my job… but i would really prefer it to be less of the meeting and more of the doing… lets be open.

1. AAR doesn’t help if the thing is not going to happen again….
2. AAR doesn’t help if we aren’t going to do anything about it after we review….
3. TECHNICALLY the preplanning should already cover these problems that we are going to face….

so what im saying is…. dont tell me the people planning isnt thinking far enough… that sounds totally weird. whatever can go wrong will go wrong… and planning is to hope we will overcome that… but this is life. THINGS DO HAPPEN.. and its the immediate action we do that rectify it.. not sitting down and talking about it solve anything. yes i agree that listing out problems can help the future to preamp the problem we have faced… but thats just my take…

ok so i went dinner with Jimson just now at CWP… talked alot about his school work and stuff.. turns out he is having my fyp supervisor as his supervisor… WTF SUAY SIA.. suay for him especially.. for that fked up supervisor actually wanted to fail me for failing his ambitious project…. i wanted to do programming for the fun of it and helping others.. meaning to have it opensourced…. he wanted to have a CHEAPER ALTERNATIVE TO WIRELESS MONITORING SYSTEM. all you ever think is $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ ehx.. ,,|,, FK U. i got D because of you just talking and not helping at all.. “ go check out the data sheet to see how to use it” LIKE OMGS IF ITS REALLY THAT SIMPLE PEOPLE DONT HAVE TO GO TO POLY AND DO SUBJECT LIKE MCT or EMBEDDED SYSTEMS TO LEARN HOW TO USE THE FREAKING MICROCONTROLLER CHIP OR THE INTEL 8808 MICROPROCESSOR… so FK U AGAIN.

then we moved on to talk about my work and he told me he has a problem with IPPT. particularly in chin up and running… wth for a black belt certified instructor… his best timing is 11min near 12… and chinup he can only squeeze 1 and half… brought him to the chin-up bar and talked about some techniques for training… hope he put in effort… no body can help us if we dont even wanna help ourselves…

Finally…

today im really in some fked up mood… causing unhappiness to people around and hurting some in the process… ahhHhhH sorry… i know sorry means very little after the hurt and words… but i donnno what else i can do to rectify this problem… i need to control my temper more… as feedback from my platoon… think thru properly then execute it… not do le then think ehx it can be done better… Thanks Guys…

So a few more weeks to my overseas training. wait am i allow to say this? i dont want MSD knocking.. I’m ready for it more or less… to people who read this. thanks.

till then

WeiZhan